craving authenticity today.

I don’t want to live my life in obligation to anyone.  I want to do whatever Jesus wants me to, but I don’t ever want to do things because I feel like they will get me somewhere with someone.  I don’t ever want to be that person who does stuff purely to look some way that they want to look, because someone else wants them to look that way.  Whether it’s society, individual people or some other third party. 

Does that make sense?  Good.

So I date this beautiful girl who has a awesome family.  I have spend most of the past few years thinking about authenticity, and these people help me to contemplate it more.  They are the most authentic people that I know.  They think they’re weird, but I think they’re really awesome people.  They don’t let anybody else’s standards shape who they are.  They are purely who they are created to be, and it is incredibly refreshing to hang out with them whenever I can.  They are so cool, and I’m realizing, that for most of my christian life, I have been trying to be like them(well, not them in particular, but having the same qualities they have).  The greatest thing about being authentic, is that you never have to worry about what you say or do, since you are never lying or telling half truths.

Life is good when you’re authentic.  I’m craving that today.  I didn’t practice authenticity for so long that it’s hard some days to be me (off to listen to some Superchick)…